On 23 Feb 2015 I received this unexpected email from Ilaine Lennard for forwarding to Andreas…
From: Ilaine Lennard
Date: Monday, 23 February 2015
Subject: thank you andreas
the other day I was on the Internet and came across a site about Anugraha.
To my amazement it also said that you had saved those who had pledged their
houses as collateral for Anugraha.
One of those who had provided collateral for this were the Lennards, but I
had never before been told that you were the one who had saved us.
I can only say how deeply touched I was to realise what you had done so
selflessly for us. And I wanted to thank you with all my heart – even though
it is now so late to do so.
I hope this message reaches you safely, and that you are both as well as can
be expected, given the passing of years. Please let me know if you received
I send my love. God bless you – and Susannah too – Ilaine Lennard
Here is my reply…
I have not passed your email to Andreas. His reaction to hearing you mentioned would not be good. He has already survived two heart attacks. He has been very hurt and his life practically destroyed by these events. Not a single person in Subud has shown interest or care.
What you say has the ring of sincerity but it applies to just a drop in the ocean of the harm you have done us. For starters you should read “Why so late?” in https://subudconscience.com/news/
After Andreas financed the saving of your home and the other three all those years ago, we had insufficient funds left to save our own home which became partly owned by the Bank. Subud had promised to reimburse Andreas but, in spite of several reminders, no money has ever come through, Your not allowing the name “Zys” to appear in Subud Voice prevented us from making public protest or telling our story. A few years ago we learned that Andreas’s name had been removed from the list of Subud members. Your action prevented us from making public protest. Your action denied any right to get an Inquiry into the loss of Anugraha or obtain justice for those wrongly accused. We have been, and still are, living on eggshells with a tiny income not backed up by any savings – we live with the constant fear of suddenly being forced out of our home. Not only have Subud not offered us any help but our occasional letters – always courteous – to the successive Executives over these 25 years have not once been replied to. Your action prevented us from speaking out for 20 years. Recently Andreas was asked by two Helpers to prove that he was a Subud member, as the evidence made it clear that he was not, supported by their having never heard of him. Your action and that of your successors is responsible for that and prompted me to create the SubudConscience site. Your action and animosity to the Zyses is a major factor in our current situation, having prevented us from even stating our case, never mind achieving a measure of justice.
Andreas’s kindness to you has embarrassed you. Feel free to now embarrass us with your reciprocal help. Do be clear that we are not asking for money from you – it is surely up to Subud to recognise the enormous amount that Andreas did for Subud, to acknowledge wrongs done and promises made. You, Ilaine, have a sizeable responsibility for our situation. What you now do about that depends on your conscience and your character. If you act well, there will be a spin-off benefit to Subud which is currently in a state that is causing numbers to decline – it is mainly people of conscience and good character who are leaving. No mention of the “Zys situation” has been made in Subud Voice during your regime or since, i.e. for 25 years. Do you now have sufficient sense of morality and of justice to do something about that outrage?
We know you have suffered, given and lost a lot due to the failure of Subud enterprises. You, Ilaine, are intelligent, have contacts and have the ability to speak and to write effectively. If the feeling you express is, indeed, sincere you now have the opportunity to take action to convince those who matter that the Zys situation MUST be resolved and very soon – an acknowledgement of Justice and gratitude by Subud.
Please do not reply to this here in words; your visible actions from now on will be your response. I do thank you sincerely for your decency in apologising but you will understand why I hope for more. If you were to be instrumental in getting Subud to help the Zyses you would thereby be helping Subud regain a foothold on the path of decency from where it has strayed since the death of Bapak.
PS. Collusion has taken place, Conflict of interest and Wilful Blindness appear over and over again, as if a web has been weaved out of intrigue and complexity. For us it has been like breaking into a Mafia organisation which has shut us out, hoping that we would disappear and die. I have to wonder if you have been subjected to a conflict of interests due to your friendship with Travers-Smith.