1. Blog written by Susannah Zys August 2020 transferred from Facebook.com/Subudconscience:
Intelligent people do not mess with statues. Splitting a symbol is no small act. An act performed without malice but in sagacity. Our lives are founded upon symbols. Symbols shape communities and tell what they are about. Truth of the religious symbol is important yet becomes complicated where injustice, immoral practices and suppression exist.
Anugraha became a symbol. Those members who have listened to the many tapes, read the articles or even fortunate enough to be present at Bapaks talks will understand.
There has been too much suffering, pain, loss including life to allow this organisation to forget, to carry on as it has done over these years. Splitting a symbol becomes part of its life, its history and cannot be ignored, ever forgotten or hidden. It simply is.
It could be said that the story of Anugraha, the aftermath and the Enterprise era is in opposition to the transformative representation of the symbol itself. Symbols are indeed open to individual interpretation yet religious symbols are supposed to be true to what they symbolise. They are meant to be effective in transferring that interpretation. How else is that reflected but by the behaviour of those representing or leading the organisation. If the symbol does not reflect this or there is visible division between the two it is considered to be idolatrous even demonic.
Subud’s behaviour over these 31 years has indeed been called demonic by a few. The violent use of silence. Shunning good people. Unlawful acts. Acts and actions that persecute and suppress. Hypocrisy. Arrogance. Walking away. Collective denial. All and more has produced suffering, loss, diminishment to someone.
One does not abandon responsibility of life when focussing on a union with God. The fact is the reverse is likely to occur. Your actions, thoughts and responses to humanity and the world gel in compassion affirmity and similitude. This was very much central to the many messages from Subud’s Founder yet lost in its performance following his death.
Ignoring his voice, created a world no longer represented by him or his symbol. Bapak was in many ways made a fraud by those who followed. Those who damaged his legacy. Those who disrespected the law and culture of the land in which they resided. Silence, shunning, breaking laws has no place in the movement Bapak created. Only those who remain are required to explain why such behaviour is relished clung too, tolerated today.
Enough I say Enough. You can offend no more.
2. Blog written by Susannah Zys Anugust 2020 transferred from Facebook.com/Subudconscience:
I have danced as if a whirling dervish. Swirling, gliding across two worlds. The stellar mystical world of the symbol.
Swirling and whirling across the opposite realms of truth and untruth, reality and unreality. Grasping insight only to lose it. Swirling and whirling to regain the wonder to lose again in a flash. The tangible that becomes intangible. The defined that turns abstract.
For some there is the belief that if a symbol is not torn it is idolatrous. Entering the world it is possible to understand how the academic intelligent seekers reach their conclusions.
As the dance exhausts, the energy dies one is left with a final certainty. A reality. That being, the only ethical grounding reality lies with the individual alone.
All things logical, of this world, understandable and realisable within the Subud symbol begin and end with Bapak. His writings, his talks, his Pewartas. In these you will not find him advocating walking away, breaking law, harming people. This diversion results from forces non representative of him.
The world of the symbol presents a challenge impossible to achieve. An orgasm in its yearning to reach God. Though the symbol may not be representative in this world, it does ask a question. How are we to be responsible and live responsibly whilst practising that abandon experienced by those who practice the Subud latihan?
Trust all is well
Andreas is dying. We are preparing to bring him home. Hoping the medical equipment will arrive. It has been inferred that his needs will have to be met elsewhere. Subud will not help.
Andreas has suffered greatly since Anugraha’s loss and he faces a difficult final journey with the help of morphine, Pallative Care, highly stressed me, Joe Lewis and Ian Insley. Friends and neighbours give loving support. People are praying for him and sending healing. All these kind wonderful energies come from ‘elsewhere’.
I have already heard from one Subud member who suggested I placed our needs on this page
FINANCIAL – ANDREAS CARE FUND:
Acc No: 10486968
Sort Code: 11 03 66
Name: S Zys
IBand No: GB77HLFX11036610486968
Alternatively, contact firstname.lastname@example.org
COMPANIONSHIP: before Anugraha’s loss our home was a Subud House offering free accommodation to travelling members, meeting etc. After Anugraha Andreas became the loneliest man on the planet. When he comes home if any of his old friends would like to sit with him. Help him to face this big experience. All are welcome. He is unlikely to remember much due to lesions on his brain. Gentleness is paramount
PRACTICAL: I am looking for an au pair type person to do washing ironing house etc. can anyone help. Live in possible.
SMALL LIGHT WHEELCHAIR: for indoor use only . If anyone has one not used would love it on temporary loan basis
SUPPORT NURSING TEAM: who visit 4 times a day need someone at night to allow me to rest with peace of mind. Need someone through out day to be with him.
SUBUD BRITAIN IS A REGISTERED CHARITY
…yet gives nothing in the past or now to help Andreas. It gives no recognition to Public Benefit and turns it’s back. It appears it is a Registered Charity solely for the tax benefit and other rewards it receives. This raises the question if indeed the Charity Commission should be informed and for them to investigate if indeed Subud Britain is worthy of its recognition
An article written by Sharif Horthy in the 80s re “Why Anugraha Should Be Easy” infers that ‘Charity’ has been dispensed with. It is not clear if it applies to a change of usage of Anugraha that may not have been legal as Shareholders were not informed or change of emphasis within the organisation. Could this be the root of the problem? I draw this to the attention of caring members to bring about change not just for Andreas but members in the future.
The May edition of Subud Voice disappeared from the Internet yet it is available. I assume this may be due to Lewes members reaction to the loss of St Anne’s. The transcript is very interesting and for me highlighted 3 things
1. They were angry at St Anne’s Loss.
2. They failed to understand the significance of being ‘saved’
3. They came into true realisation that the organisation and representatives place great importance upon Subud’s assets rather than its members.
Lewes was spot on. This cannot be more plain. A man is dying. Subud has responsiblity. He has suffered for 27 years. His life destroyed. They won’t help.
Is it not time for change? Only members can produce the change for their future
What is clear, evil and material forces predominate in the Subud Organisation. I cannot forgive what you have done and continue to do in the case of Andreas . It’s painful to experience. I can only protect him from being hurt further. He knows but never complains.
END OF SILENCE – Justice & Closure before he dies. NOW
In the past, Sharif Horthy has spoken about Subud’s attitude to its failed enterprises, such as Anugraha, Widjojo, BSB Bank, Premier Hotels and Project Sunrise.
We have used pictures to illustrate what messages he is sending to the world, together with an illustration to depict the response from Susannah Zys.
You may view these illustrations here: Pictoral Messages
On 23 Feb 2015 I received this unexpected email from Ilaine Lennard for forwarding to Andreas…
From: Ilaine Lennard
Date: Monday, 23 February 2015
Subject: thank you andreas
the other day I was on the Internet and came across a site about Anugraha.
To my amazement it also said that you had saved those who had pledged their
houses as collateral for Anugraha.
One of those who had provided collateral for this were the Lennards, but I
had never before been told that you were the one who had saved us.
I can only say how deeply touched I was to realise what you had done so
selflessly for us. And I wanted to thank you with all my heart – even though
it is now so late to do so.
I hope this message reaches you safely, and that you are both as well as can
be expected, given the passing of years. Please let me know if you received
I send my love. God bless you – and Susannah too – Ilaine Lennard
Here is my reply…
I have not passed your email to Andreas. His reaction to hearing you mentioned would not be good. He has already survived two heart attacks. He has been very hurt and his life practically destroyed by these events. Not a single person in Subud has shown interest or care.
After Andreas financed the saving of your home and the other three all those years ago, we had insufficient funds left to save our own home which became partly owned by the Bank. Subud had promised to reimburse Andreas but, in spite of several reminders, no money has ever come through, Your not allowing the name “Zys” to appear in Subud Voice prevented us from making public protest or telling our story. A few years ago we learned that Andreas’s name had been removed from the list of Subud members. Your action prevented us from making public protest. Your action denied any right to get an Inquiry into the loss of Anugraha or obtain justice for those wrongly accused. We have been, and still are, living on eggshells with a tiny income not backed up by any savings – we live with the constant fear of suddenly being forced out of our home. Not only have Subud not offered us any help but our occasional letters – always courteous – to the successive Executives over these 25 years have not once been replied to. Your action prevented us from speaking out for 20 years. Recently Andreas was asked by two Helpers to prove that he was a Subud member, as the evidence made it clear that he was not, supported by their having never heard of him. Your action and that of your successors is responsible for that and prompted me to create the SubudConscience site. Your action and animosity to the Zyses is a major factor in our current situation, having prevented us from even stating our case, never mind achieving a measure of justice.
Andreas’s kindness to you has embarrassed you. Feel free to now embarrass us with your reciprocal help. Do be clear that we are not asking for money from you – it is surely up to Subud to recognise the enormous amount that Andreas did for Subud, to acknowledge wrongs done and promises made. You, Ilaine, have a sizeable responsibility for our situation. What you now do about that depends on your conscience and your character. If you act well, there will be a spin-off benefit to Subud which is currently in a state that is causing numbers to decline – it is mainly people of conscience and good character who are leaving. No mention of the “Zys situation” has been made in Subud Voice during your regime or since, i.e. for 25 years. Do you now have sufficient sense of morality and of justice to do something about that outrage?
We know you have suffered, given and lost a lot due to the failure of Subud enterprises. You, Ilaine, are intelligent, have contacts and have the ability to speak and to write effectively. If the feeling you express is, indeed, sincere you now have the opportunity to take action to convince those who matter that the Zys situation MUST be resolved and very soon – an acknowledgement of Justice and gratitude by Subud.
Please do not reply to this here in words; your visible actions from now on will be your response. I do thank you sincerely for your decency in apologising but you will understand why I hope for more. If you were to be instrumental in getting Subud to help the Zyses you would thereby be helping Subud regain a foothold on the path of decency from where it has strayed since the death of Bapak.
PS. Collusion has taken place, Conflict of interest and Wilful Blindness appear over and over again, as if a web has been weaved out of intrigue and complexity. For us it has been like breaking into a Mafia organisation which has shut us out, hoping that we would disappear and die. I have to wonder if you have been subjected to a conflict of interests due to your friendship with Travers-Smith.
You need to have first read “Suspicion strengthened” which is also on the subudconscience news page.
We have no proof that Ian Travers-Smith has seen what is being said here about him, but he might have difficulty convincing a jury that since 20th October 2014 no-one has told him to look at this page.
In the absence of evidence to the contrary I feel it justifiable to say that those who put money into Anugraha lost all their money due to the self-interested action of Ian Travers-Smith.
I understand that Wentworth offered just under £17million for Anugraha but they declined the condition imposed by Ian Travers-Smith that he be taken on as MD and the deal that would have repaid all of us fell through. Anugraha was then sold for £6.4million, insufficient for anyone to be repaid.
It’s not what we need to dredge up – selected complex details of over-long contentious debate. It is high time this problem was faced up to and acknowledged, and resolutions sought along the lines of openness, truth and justice.
Nobody wants to say what someone else doesn’t want to hear, so everyone has been silently conspiring to let incorrect facts assumptions remain upheld for 24 yrs.
The result is a good man’s life has been destroyed. Personal dreams and aspirations ruined. A quarter of a century of a life lost through struggle, fear and fighting for values that represent goodness and right action. Members dance on in free-fall abandon, as if in a state of brain-dead denial. Is there not one lesson to be learnt from this era, or does Subud wish to carry on walking along a path of self-destruction?
Others, with miserly characters, pick over the droppings from the cesspit of their own making. They select, with proud achievement, pickings from a huge pool. ‘We will present this and that and discredit them’. I say “BUNKUM!”
Do You Really Need ALL The Details in Public?
I challenge you all. Those who wish to believe they represent truth, well, pay for the site to be extended and maintained. It will cost you a lot, but I will release the day to day events of how the houses were saved. The WSC involvement, the involvement of Subud Britain. The high court actions fought and won. The names of members who were nice and those who were extremely nasty. I will, with glee, hang out the dirty washing and the true dark nature of those who profess to represent the Subud organisation in all its glory.
So gentlemen, are you up to the challenge? Do you really want the truth and establish who gave the most, who sacrificed the most and who did the most in this dire theatre of human error? A story of survival and courage. A story that went on for a decade and resulted in breakdown of health and quality of life. Do you really want to acknowledge those who stood for values that inspire and represent the true nature of the Founder of this unique organisation known as Subud?
We Need Openness about Anugraha
What we require to bring resolution, is openness in a constructive form. To know WHY Bapak’s hope for the future, represented in Anugraha – often referred to as his Mosque, but more useful – was dumped for £6.4M.
Who was involved in that decision and why it was taken? Are not the suffering and consequences important to everyone?
We need to clear the names of the innocent used as scapegoats, and place the responsibility firmly upon the shoulders of those responsible. We need to put an end to threats upon our life and all possibility of court cases that neither party can afford. We need to fully restore Andreas before he dies, without compromise, as he has given all. This is now becoming urgent as time is running out for us.
We need to act as Bapak intended, as a family that failed, but now has an opportunity to care again. To show the values that can only be expressed if Subud Members are sincerely receiving from God: LOVE.
In my post of Oct 20 2014, “Let me tell you a funny story…”, I wrote:
Will Ian Travis-Smith, MD of Anugraha at the time, or one of those who was on the Board with him, please now give us – in public – an explanation to account for that HUGE DIFFERENCE OF TEN MILLION POUNDS between what was offered and what was accepted.
No reply will understandably strengthen suspicions.
There has been no reply.
I now ask Ian Travers-Smith (apologies for having misspelt) to confirm or deny the allegation that he made it a condition of one or more of the offers for Anugraha that he, Ian Travers-Smith, be taken on as MD, a condition that was rejected and that caused the offer(s) to be withdrawn.
No denial will be interpreted as signifying that the allegation is no longer just a suspicion.
We are being told that there must be a hidden reason why we have waited so long to come out with our story. There is, indeed, a hidden reason – for 20 years we were prevented from speaking out.
Until recently, the only publication in Subud was the monthly “Subud Voice” sent to individuals and groups around the world. The Editor, Ilaine Lennard, refused for 20 years to publish anything written by, or on behalf of the Zyses, or anything mentioning them. She gave no reason. Our request to successive Subud Britain Committees, that they intervene, only produced the response: “The Editor’s decision is final”. We sent posters to groups, asking that they be pinned up on Notice Boards. All group chairmen refused on the grounds that the matter did not concern them, or that “many others had lost their investment” or “we cannot get involved in a private matter”.
Five homes under threat
Following the loss of Anugraha, the Lennards were one of those under threat of losing their home to the Bank. Subud Britain prevaricated about helping, even though time was of the essence. Andreas immediately offered to help, with our home being one of the 5 that were threatened. A team had several meetings with the Barclays solicitor. The funding came from Andreas, who insisted that the Zys home should be the last one dealt with.
On the day that a deal was agreed with Barclays for the Lennard home, the first thing Andreas did on his return from London was to phone the Lennards. Lawrence Lennard answered the phone. Andreas told him the joyful news to which Lawrence replied “F*** off and don’t ever dare phone here again”. Andreas put that down to the huge stress the householders had been under. For example, Andreas had advised them all to barricade themselves in, knowing that a bailiff would attempt to gain physical access. I felt there was more than just stress to explain the behaviour of the Lennards.
Andreas funded the successful rescue of the 4 homes but the endeavour cost more than envisaged, leaving us with insufficient money to save our own home. Since then, Barclays have partially owned our home and we are now threatened with it being totally lost to them, meaning that we will be evicted.
The 4 couples whose homes were saved were never informed, at Andreas’ insistence, that it was Andreas who funded the saving of their home.
Subud today – evil or apathetic?
Subud has become a strange society. The vast majority of members are undoubtedly decent folk, but a visible minority are decidedly evil. Sadly, the majority are apathetic and desire only to remain in a “quiet state”. Bapak’s screaming at the ladies during their latihan at Anugraha, witnessed by Andreas, that they should get up and do something seems to have been of no avail.
We, the Zyses, are being treated as criminals but no-one tells us why. The accused usually has the right to know what he is accused of. I do appreciate that very recently I have been upsetting and boring people with the unpleasant things I have been writing. But what about the previous 25 years? Neither Andreas nor I have ever been accused of any wrong-doing in that very long time. Andreas was unable to see others suffer without feeling an impulse to help, and he did help many, very many, and not always with money, often simply by fighting on their behalf. The manner in which Subud reciprocates lies in the hands of every single member who claims to follow the latihan. Committees, national and international, will do what a majority of members want them to do – but they cannot do so if the members say nothing.
So, you who are reading this, do you care?
Anugraha collapses and there is no enquiry. £2 million, promised to be sent to help members in distress, goes missing. No enquiry. Since the loss of Anugraha, hundreds have left Subud in disgust and no-one seems to care. It is obvious that in Subud, evil is winning over decency, and that does not bode well for the future of Subud. In fact I would go as far as to doubt, unless radical changes are made, whether Subud has a future.
1. It concerns an enterprise on the other side of the world,
2. it all happened a long time ago.