We are being told that there must be a hidden reason why we have waited so long to come out with our story. There is, indeed, a hidden reason – for 20 years we were prevented from speaking out.
Until recently, the only publication in Subud was the monthly “Subud Voice” sent to individuals and groups around the world. The Editor, Ilaine Lennard, refused for 20 years to publish anything written by, or on behalf of the Zyses, or anything mentioning them. She gave no reason. Our request to successive Subud Britain Committees, that they intervene, only produced the response: “The Editor’s decision is final”. We sent posters to groups, asking that they be pinned up on Notice Boards. All group chairmen refused on the grounds that the matter did not concern them, or that “many others had lost their investment” or “we cannot get involved in a private matter”.
Five homes under threat
Following the loss of Anugraha, the Lennards were one of those under threat of losing their home to the Bank. Subud Britain prevaricated about helping, even though time was of the essence. Andreas immediately offered to help, with our home being one of the 5 that were threatened. A team had several meetings with the Barclays solicitor. The funding came from Andreas, who insisted that the Zys home should be the last one dealt with.
On the day that a deal was agreed with Barclays for the Lennard home, the first thing Andreas did on his return from London was to phone the Lennards. Lawrence Lennard answered the phone. Andreas told him the joyful news to which Lawrence replied “F*** off and don’t ever dare phone here again”. Andreas put that down to the huge stress the householders had been under. For example, Andreas had advised them all to barricade themselves in, knowing that a bailiff would attempt to gain physical access. I felt there was more than just stress to explain the behaviour of the Lennards.
Andreas funded the successful rescue of the 4 homes but the endeavour cost more than envisaged, leaving us with insufficient money to save our own home. Since then, Barclays have partially owned our home and we are now threatened with it being totally lost to them, meaning that we will be evicted.
The 4 couples whose homes were saved were never informed, at Andreas’ insistence, that it was Andreas who funded the saving of their home.
Subud today – evil or apathetic?
Subud has become a strange society. The vast majority of members are undoubtedly decent folk, but a visible minority are decidedly evil. Sadly, the majority are apathetic and desire only to remain in a “quiet state”. Bapak’s screaming at the ladies during their latihan at Anugraha, witnessed by Andreas, that they should get up and do something seems to have been of no avail.
We, the Zyses, are being treated as criminals but no-one tells us why. The accused usually has the right to know what he is accused of. I do appreciate that very recently I have been upsetting and boring people with the unpleasant things I have been writing. But what about the previous 25 years? Neither Andreas nor I have ever been accused of any wrong-doing in that very long time. Andreas was unable to see others suffer without feeling an impulse to help, and he did help many, very many, and not always with money, often simply by fighting on their behalf. The manner in which Subud reciprocates lies in the hands of every single member who claims to follow the latihan. Committees, national and international, will do what a majority of members want them to do – but they cannot do so if the members say nothing.
So, you who are reading this, do you care?
Anugraha collapses and there is no enquiry. £2 million, promised to be sent to help members in distress, goes missing. No enquiry. Since the loss of Anugraha, hundreds have left Subud in disgust and no-one seems to care. It is obvious that in Subud, evil is winning over decency, and that does not bode well for the future of Subud. In fact I would go as far as to doubt, unless radical changes are made, whether Subud has a future.
Subud Canada refuses to help its members know about the Subudconscience website for two reasons:
1. It concerns an enterprise on the other side of the world,
2. it all happened a long time ago.